'Greetings loves,
So today has been very interesting, well this whole week to be exact. Spirit has had me tuned into the energy of relationships --- cultivating them and healing them. Today the conversation with spirit has been around the energy of musical sound ---- and the relationship and connection we have with it. One of the most powerful tools I use in any spiritual work and healing has to do with musical sound. Sound is something magical because it speaks to something deeper than just our humanity. It speaks to the souls of our spirits; and has the power to share truth we sometimes cannot express. In this way healing, as well as other things have a direct connection and pathway to the heart of our souls. ` When we speak of sound and music one thing I find to be interesting is the relationship different generations have to their own and other generation's sound. I have heard many elders speak of the music we as millennials have produced and consumed. There is typically a negative assessment of our sound. Now there are many aspects of our sound that hold very base energy, even if simply the beat or rhythm of our sound. But regardless it is Our sound. My question for spirit was why? Why is this our sound? So today during lunch it came to me as I listened to Cardi B's "Bodak Yellow", which I have come to love. What we each express, feel, and speak in our music is Emotion. This is something huge because Emotion is one of the most important yet neglected forms of energy and state of being among us as a whole. Our emotions are sacred connected space. It speaks truths we are unaware of at times. So it makes sense that the tool of musical sound can translate the emotion of our spirit and humanity into words and rhythms; and even heal and transform death. Music acts as a portal without limitation or bounds; it simply is. This understanding led me to look at the sounds of our ancestors who were held in captivity. I felt the feeling of those songs; the Emotion in those sounds. Through the ache of the Emotions sound there was still a light or connectedness even in the souls heart ache. I didn't understand how this could be? And so I asked, what is in our sound that has changed so much? And spirit answered... baby it is the growth and festering of our pain..... Instantly I felt it, it reigned down on my spirit as truth so hard there was only surrenderance. What we have been hearing is not just this generations emotion--- but it is the collective of all our ancestors pouring in through us and through the portal that is music. Music speaks the truths of the emotion that has been stuffed down, corrupted, violated, and sacrificed. In the sound of our music you hear the generations of wails in a form that only sound can produce. If you close your eyes and you feel the energy of the music that is massively produced today..... what you can hear and most importantly feel; past the misogyny, overly sexualized and at times crude or vile lyrics... is the pain. It is the sound of our and our ancestors spirits, and the experiences of our humanity. What we see and hear too often that repels us in each others music, is the pain and trauma we all have generationally linked inside--- And it has never truly healed just festered and grew, and became more desperate with time. So then my question to spirit was why does this Emotion come up more often versus the joys and freedoms that we experience today? Spirits answer was simple--- It's because it is hidden, it is that thing in the shadow we are so afraid of. It is that thing that can either destroy or free us. it is the power of our own truths that we are afraid to speak--- and so we leave it in the dark. Instead of releasing the judgment of ourselves, each other and our truth; we have chosen to demonize, shun, and criticize instead of heal. We as a collective have been crying out for so long, yet we as a collective have closed our ears and shunned our pain and so we continue the oppression. So for me when I listen to sounds of our music, I see the truth of our soul hearts and the pain that has flowed from generation to generation. I realize that it is time we stop casting out judgment and for once feel and truly hear what the other is saying. No more turning a blind eye because the pain feels unbearable. No more choosing to blame instead of love and care. It's time we begin to heal those parts of ourselves that refuse to connect because of the pain we feel when we do. It's time we put aside our generations differences and realize that with out this connection, love, healing, and joy within ourselves and in our relationships with one another we will surely perish; if from nothing else than the broken heart of our ancestors that we carry today. We are our ancestors and we are our healers. Much love, yours truly Eve
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Hello Loves,
So today I realized something about relationships...well my relationships in particular. I'd spent the better part of my life in various abusive relationships. About 4 years ago I began my journey of healing my life and more so my spirit. Most recently I have been working on the relationship I have with myself, As I have gone through the journey of healing relationships of all kind there was one I never thought to touch, maybe even took for granted. This was my relationship with spirit/universe/Ancestors. I guess you could say I saw them as the almighty power outside of myself. Which meant that I was lesser, & I believed my humanness made me lesser. I believed I would suffer punishment if I spoke about my truths with spirit that may not align with them or acted in ways that were not "holy & spiritual". I even believed that I had to prove myself worthy of whatever the goal was; which most of the times was simply love, joy, & stability. That is interesting for two reasons: Reason #1- The concept of needing to prove yourself worthy to receive things such as love, joy, & stability; completely went against my supposed standing in the falsities of the christian belief, "we are born in sin". However this is how I acted and treated myself; as though I were unworthy & so corrupted by my sinful nature that love & such things eluded me. But--I guess my life experience also played apart in this confused state of being. My father, though a loving, kind-hearted person & fierce warrior when it came to his loves was an alcoholic. He chose to leave my mother and I when I was a baby. ( He and I reconnected about 5 years ago & begun to heal our relationship and still remain close beyond his passing earlier this year) Another man entered my life during that same time who then took the position of abusive step-father for the next 15 years of my life. And so it's easy to believe even with just that snippet of back story & as untrue as it is that I would believe that I'd done something to deserve it; as many of us do. Unfortunately we hitch our life experiences onto our backs as though they are indicative of who we are and what we can become. Interesting right? Well reason #2 for this fact being interesting, is because my relationship with spirit/universe/ancestors, was a direct mirror of every relationship i'd ever had with any person. My sole goal in life has been to please enough to be worthy of love, joy, & stability---& I worked my ass off to prove my worthiness. I worked endlessly, day & night---to my own demise. And the sad but unmistakable pattern was that no matter who, myself included, always asked for more. Why? Because I believed I had to give & be more. But--- you know society has taught us this as well. Just for a moment think about the education system and work force system. There are mass numbers of people who bury themselves under student loans, marriages, and various other contracts trying to prove themselves worthy by obtaining certain "goals of worthiness". Typically in all the work we do to prove ourselves we to often fall into 1 of 3 categories. #1- Possibly -but not always- going to college to end up landing a job working in your favorite coffee spot or some other less than soul fulfilling job, where more of you is always required and if you haven't given up on yourself, continuously chasing worthiness. #2- Landing a job after school only to realize you're miserable, lonely, & boring; but you feel too much life has passed by to do anything different so you settle--all with the under current feeling of not being worthy enough. #3- Not only do you land your dream job after completing your higher education journey, but your thrive in your new powerful position. Meanwhile you participate in securing the agenda of worthy vs unworthiness in our society. All the while truthfully afraid that if anything shifted your perceived reality your title, worthiness, position, and/or power would be stripped away. This all produces the belief that we aren't as life holding and creating beings innately born worthy. ---Because again "we are all born in sin" right? And must always prove that we have been saved from our sinful ways. But this is not always the only out come; you have some who go the road less traveled and even those who move through higher education- or not- and land their dream job helping to support others in removing the belief of unworthiness. In my epiphany of my relationships and the truth behind them, I realized i'd simply transferred one abusive experience into every other part of my life, to the point where I was always a victim, re-living the same cycle. What's worse is that I'd now subjected myself to my own victimization by my own abusive self. As sad as that realization was it was nothing compared to the wondrous truth i'd just discovered within myself. Which is this--I am born in the divine glory of the one creator I AM. In this truth I am released of all perceived "sin" & it is my birth and life right to be held in love, joy, & stability; among many other things we have been taught are privileged only to the "cream of the crop". I must be no one, but me & I must do nothing, but me. I am worthy because I was born to be. Me is enough! Naked, bald, and true, me down to my very core is enough. I am worthy. And in this truth all of my relationships are transformed. I am enough. And in my relationships with divine spirit/universe/ancestors & all others, there's no longer that ever growing gap between me & worthiness. Because I am enough and I no longer require proof of worthiness. I simply am love, joy, & stability. Though I will forever work to manifest my dreams & heal my spirit, heart, & humanity; I am no longer thirsty for love, joy, stability & any other desire I have--- It is a requirement by divine birth right. With that understanding I am now free to laugh, to joke, to dance, to sing, to be in the glory of who I was always meant to be. & I now require love, joy, & stability in every area of my life. I no longer require abuse in any area of my life. I release my own & projected victimization in the spirit of joy & I choose to love and be loved purely; while standing firmly and stably in my truth of I AM. Love Always, Eve |
AuthorEve is an intuitive reader & channeled writer. She uses her gifts in discovering the truths, & receiving guidance through her connection & agreement with the spiritual realm. By being open to interpreting and translating the messages from the spiritual realm she is able to provide insight & divine guidance to her readers & clients.
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